i last minute got cold feet not bringing my father back

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i think of a lot of work on my hands, taking 2 courses, going for interviews, kena tonnes of shit at work that i have to look for job

along with 1000 other things i decided to be selfish

then i think of me having to clear the shit i will definitely explode then need to take more pills which will affect my health and memory

frankly growing old is damn sian

下辈子不要做人

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鱼与熊掌不可兼得

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i prep everything liao the wheelchair. clear the table the sofa wiped and put the water proof bedsheet and stuff and i still

过不了我自己这一关

i feel mentally tired and 体力透支

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Everytime i got this last minute cold feet thing for many things fr impt to not so impt ones

I feel im like quite hum ji in many things

[Magical Fingertip]

trust your body

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I rly feel mentally and physically tired and drained

I feel nth gg great in life like money, work friendships rship and all

Like rly nth good to show for or to him

Then bring him back is like to make myself abide by filial piety

Deep inside i maxed out then got to deal with shit by colleagues

Kind of want to take a few pills and see hw long i can sleep. Not rly suicidal but just want to see can slp hw long... still want to wake up but like want to slp entire weekend away

[Magical Fingertip]

tonight go find some zeh zeh to confide

[sTiCkY]

zeh zehs are the best

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tonight go find some zeh zeh to confide

who? jo teo?

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I wonder which is worse. Real heck care of fake filial piety

真小人或伪君子

[Suntan]

Certain times in our life overwhelm with duties & responsibilities.
Take one step at a time & clear one by one....You will see light at end of tunnel

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Certain times in our life overwhelm with duties & responsibilities.
Take one step at a time & clear one by one....You will see light at end of tunnel

Recently many things not smooth esp work

[Suntan]

Recently many things not smooth esp work

10-15 yrs ago, moi life also not smooth plus a few family members kenna cancer, so in out hospital really like home daily. Plus work got mobbing, took further study to getaway....

[老曾记]

It's ok to be selfish at times. U need to be a little selfish