Which phase(s) in life is/was the best/worst for you ??

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wwow.. write so long.. find a new jhb chiu will be ok liao
 

quite tiring to think of such things. anyway i went to re-edit liao u can reread the stupid story if interested

but most people arent interested anyway

basically thru-ought my life it's fraught with tonnes of shit. and i gave shit to close people around me

and im still shit

真的是，烂泥扶不上墙

[jim889]

quite tiring to think of such things. anyway i went to re-edit liao u can reread the stupid story if interested

but most people arent interested anyway

basically thru-ought my life it's fraught with tonnes of shit. and i gave shit to close people around me

and im still shit

真的是，烂泥扶不上墙

always 向钱看。

往事只能回味
just forget about the past. dun think too much chiu cant change the past.
 

[Banned User]

actually tbh i havent had it good in life. totally honest probably worse than u shiori

many many things such as getting aimed and almost lost an eye - scar still visible (roughly 1cm away from eye) - if i ever meet any of u i can show. teachers aimed me and top students aimed me because for a few exams i suddenly became top 3 or top 2

a lot of people see me as an eyesore at sports or school work. im not particularly the best but when i really fight back i usually can hold my ground. but this makes the bullies or even teachers dislike me even more. because they feel since ure small sized, since ure not known for studies or fighting, you should just shut up and be average. dont talk back, dont try to fight back in sports or studies or anything

because they only expect those good in sports or studies to be consistent and i suddenly win them out of the blue. u may not believe it but i can swear all these were true. i might not be smartest and small sized but when i put my mind to it i can easily be top few - not saying now but all in the past lah

i went to a few bazi master, they say i  bazi 缺火. many times right, i win at the start but suddenly die down. like online selling biz - i did well to have passive income of 3k per mth, but then suddenly doubted myself and saw tiong sellers coming in then i stopped selling. like chasing girl, after a while feel im not good enough then gave up even though a few rare times the girl was ok. like when i was in NPCC i was top cadet then by sec 3 i totally dont feel like participating... pri sch i also got selected to the music recorder team, end up also half way i dropped out. my friend who didnt get selected but wanted to join stayed on

i feel i do things really very 三分钟热度. then when i lose that mood or feel im not good enough (say for a jog or girl or anything), i suddenly drop out of it altogether... i hope u are not like me

the number 1 student buay song me coz i won him. the top track runner pitted against me in napfa test and i won him in 5 areas (except the long run which was his forte), but still i also got pretty good score for that, nearly perfect

in army i also kena many things and a warrant officer  wanted to whack me, is coz a ITE civilian clerk (those bo tak ceh woman sign on) aim me. he later found out and told me to be wary of her

even now at work someone from another dept is bullying me and resorting to personal attacks

and many other sthings incl relatives blaming me and parents like that

i say many times liao lor. most people either hate me or like me but i also always get betrayed

i also got many work issues........ usually boss like me at the start then after that dont like me coz they feel i usually remain neutral and dont want to play their politics (this part also true)

e.g. i work with the current dept, i get along well with probably 80% the other 15% is ok/neutral then 5% dont rly like me

u can see from how they look at u and interact with u

then my boss always wants me to shoot another dept but i always neutral. then the 5% (presumably roughly 5 people) will keep finding problems with me and want to 抢功劳

then the other dept that i work closely with. also about the above, most are ok except that 5% or less. but i have to work with 1 of them who keeps finding ways and means to attack me at a personal level, discredit me and gaslight

coz i look young and my voice is kiddish and i dont look good and am small sized then these few unprofessional ones also keep aiming me out of the blue. it affects me and my promotion and future including finding a partner


to sum up. which part of my life is best? i dont know. when my mum was around? but back then i gave her many problems and i was stuck in my own issues and have a low paying job just like u. max pay was 5k per mth but that job only work 3 mths. have to work until 2-3 am and report for work at 8am. not always but maybe 20%-30% of the time which is a lot already


basically they terminated my employment also for that. that was when my mum was sick

young time i told u above liao, people aim me. when in army also kena aim. also changed many jobs.

fast forward to today - current job seem ok but with that 1 person keep aiming me and maybe another 4-5 giving me problems once in a while
and boss not putting me in the plans (to promote me or to find ways to give me opportunities)......... and parents are like that now. but i still have self esteem issues although now much higher paid.

i cannot say currently is better or best. so i cant say last time schooling better, army better, start work better or now mid career better........ coz currently i feel im going nowhere and my value is diminishing


i really dont know how to answer which is the best period

im still thinking how to find that piece of 蓝天白云......... how to be top of my game then finally  笑傲江湖.

really thinking of what Louis Cha (jin yong said), 人生本该， 大闹一场， 悄然离去

I almost thought I was reading an essay about myself. I have a similar experience to yours. The bullying, kena fixed by others, directionless jod, bazi缺火。