For me the best is probably before school era which I also do not recall 99% of it anyway
Everything else is either neutral or cui.
Primary school best. Everyone was genuine, so innocent, no agenda. Dun have to worry about money, food and relationships
Worst is now loh....
Still rmb my first job. Feel jskm cos working in cbd, got chio bus to beo, job even require me to wear tie. Get salary go lim jiu and buy branded nonsense etc
After that wake up from dream cos everyday have to squeeze mrt and smell other ppl's armpits. Made worse when mrt keep breaking down and aircon not cold, cbd food expensive and need to Q for very long, some place no aircon somemore
Sigh....have to endure for next few decades
Now is best and worst phase.
Got time plenty to spend 90%
Got no income so need watch how to spend based off whatever savings I have in my milo tin.
Last time working got job income no need think just buy n buy spend and spend chiong and chiong but no enough time to spends, cos working travelling almost 90% of time
Quote from: Shiori on Sep 22, 2024, 11:04 AMFor me the best is probably before school era which I also do not recall 99% of it anyway
Everything else is either neutral or cui.
Id say neutral at best. My Bad phases are during upper primary, NS, most of my working life.
Quote from: Shiori on Sep 22, 2024, 11:04 AMFor me the best is probably before school era which I also do not recall 99% of it anyway
Everything else is either neutral or cui.
Being bend from EDMW ish a new low.
Quote from: peaceheart on Sep 22, 2024, 11:16 AMPrimary school best. Everyone was genuine, so innocent, no agenda. Dun have to worry about money, food and relationships
Worst is now loh....
It only gets worse.
Quote from: BBFA on Sep 23, 2024, 08:24 PMBeing bend from EDMW ish a new low.
chiu which bbfa ?
:s11:
Quote from: Shiori on Sep 22, 2024, 11:04 AMFor me the best is probably before school era which I also do not recall 99% of it anyway
Everything else is either neutral or cui.
best is ns taim..
can keng, can lobo and can look forward to ord
:frown:
Quote from: jim889 on Sep 23, 2024, 08:37 PMchiu which bbfa ?
:s11:
Huat do chiu think? :frown:
Quote from: BBFA on Sep 23, 2024, 08:45 PMHuat do chiu think? :frown:
the frog ?
:s11:
actually tbh i havent had it good in life. totally honest probably worse than u shiori
many many things such as getting aimed and almost lost an eye - scar still visible (roughly 1cm away from eye) - if i ever meet any of u i can show. teachers aimed me and top students aimed me because for a few exams i suddenly became top 3 or top 2
a lot of people see me as an eyesore at sports or school work. im not particularly the best but when i really fight back i usually can hold my ground. but this makes the bullies or even teachers dislike me even more. because they feel since ure small sized, since ure not known for studies or fighting, you should just shut up and be average. dont talk back, dont try to fight back in sports or studies or anything
because they only expect those good in sports or studies to be consistent and i suddenly win them out of the blue. u may not believe it but i can swear all these were true. i might not be smartest and small sized but when i put my mind to it i can easily be top few - not saying now but all in the past lah
i went to a few bazi master, they say i bazi 缺火. many times right, i win at the start but suddenly die down. like online selling biz - i did well to have passive income of 3k per mth, but then suddenly doubted myself and saw tiong sellers coming in then i stopped selling. like chasing girl, after a while feel im not good enough then gave up even though a few rare times the girl was ok. like when i was in NPCC i was top cadet then by sec 3 i totally dont feel like participating... pri sch i also got selected to the music recorder team, end up also half way i dropped out. my friend who didnt get selected but wanted to join stayed on
i feel i do things really very 三分钟热度. then when i lose that mood or feel im not good enough (say for a jog or girl or anything), i suddenly drop out of it altogether... i hope u are not like me
the number 1 student buay song me coz i won him. the top track runner pitted against me in napfa test and i won him in 5 areas (except the long run which was his forte), but still i also got pretty good score for that, nearly perfect
in army i also kena many things and a warrant officer wanted to whack me, is coz a ITE civilian clerk (those bo tak ceh woman sign on) aim me. he later found out and told me to be wary of her
even now at work someone from another dept is bullying me and resorting to personal attacks
and many other sthings incl relatives blaming me and parents like that
i say many times liao lor. most people either hate me or like me but i also always get betrayed
i also got many work issues........ usually boss like me at the start then after that dont like me coz they feel i usually remain neutral and dont want to play their politics (this part also true)
e.g. i work with the current dept, i get along well with probably 80% the other 15% is ok/neutral then 5% dont rly like me
u can see from how they look at u and interact with u
then my boss always wants me to shoot another dept but i always neutral. then the 5% (presumably roughly 5 people) will keep finding problems with me and want to 抢功劳
then the other dept that i work closely with. also about the above, most are ok except that 5% or less. but i have to work with 1 of them who keeps finding ways and means to attack me at a personal level, discredit me and gaslight
coz i look young and my voice is kiddish and i dont look good and am small sized then these few unprofessional ones also keep aiming me out of the blue. it affects me and my promotion and future including finding a partner
to sum up. which part of my life is best? i dont know. when my mum was around? but back then i gave her many problems and i was stuck in my own issues and have a low paying job just like u. max pay was 5k per mth but that job only work 3 mths. have to work until 2-3 am and report for work at 8am. not always but maybe 20%-30% of the time which is a lot already
basically they terminated my employment also for that. that was when my mum was sick
young time i told u above liao, people aim me. when in army also kena aim. also changed many jobs.
fast forward to today - current job seem ok but with that 1 person keep aiming me and maybe another 4-5 giving me problems once in a while
and boss not putting me in the plans (to promote me or to find ways to give me opportunities)......... and parents are like that now. but i still have self esteem issues although now much higher paid.
i cannot say currently is better or best. so i cant say last time schooling better, army better, start work better or now mid career better........ coz currently i feel im going nowhere and my value is diminishing
i really dont know how to answer which is the best period
im still thinking how to find that piece of 蓝天白云......... how to be top of my game then finally 笑傲江湖.
really thinking of what Louis Cha (jin yong said), 人生本该， 大闹一场， 悄然离去
Quote from: default on Sep 23, 2024, 08:58 PMactually tbh i havent had it good in life. totally honest probably worse than u shiori
many many things such as getting aimed and almost lost an eye - scar still visible. teachers aimed me and top students aimed me because for a few exams i suddenly became top 3 or top 2
a lot of people see me as an eyesore at sports or school work. im not particularly the best but when i really fight back i usually can hold my ground. but this makes the bullies or even teachers dislike me even more
because they only expect those good in sports or studies to be consistent and i suddenly win them out of the blue. u may not believe it but i can swear all these were true
the number 1 student buay song me coz i won him. the top track runner pitted against me in napfa test and i won him in 5 areas (except the long run which was his forte), but still i also got pretty good score for that, nearly perfect
in army i also kena many things and a warrant wanted to whack me, is coz a ITE civilian clerk (those bo tak ceh woman sign on) aim me. he later found out and told me to be wary of her
even now at work someone from another dept is bullying me and resorting to personal attacks
and many other sthings incl relatives blaming me and parents like that
i say many times liao lor. most people either hate me or like me but i also always get betrayed
i also got many work issues........ usually boss like me at the start then after that dont like me coz they feel i usually remain neutral and dont want to play their politics (this part also true)
e.g. i work with the current dept, i get along well with probably 80% the other 15% is ok/neutral then 5% dont rly like me
u can see from how they look at u and interact with u
then my boss always wants me to shoot another dept but i always neutral. then the 5% (presumably roughly 5 people) will keep finding problems with me and want to 抢功劳
then the other dept that i work closely with. also about the above, most are ok except that 5% or less. but i have to work with 1 of them who keeps finding ways and means to attack me at a personal level, discredit me and gaslight
coz i look young and my voice is kiddish and i dont look good then these few unprofessional ones also keep aiming me out of the blue
to sum up. which part of my life is best? i dont know. when my mum was around? but back then i gave her many problems and i was stuck in my own issues and have a low paying job just like u. max pay was 5k per mth but that job only work 3 mths. have to work until 2-3 am and report for work at 8am. not always but maybe 20%-30% of the time which is a lot already
basically they terminated my employment also
young time i told u above liao, people aim me. when in army also kena aim. also changed many jobs.
current job seem ok but with that 1 person keep aiming me and maybe another 4-5 giving me problems once in a while
and boss not putting me in the plans (to promote me or to find ways to give me opportunities)......... and parents are like that now. but i still have self esteem issues although now much higher paid
i really dont know how to answer which is the best period
im still thinking how to find that piece of 蓝天白云......... how to be top of my game then finally 笑傲江湖.
really thinking of what Louis Cha (jin yong said), 人生本该， 大闹一场， 悄然离去
wwow.. write so long.. find a new jhb chiu will be ok liao
:flash:
Quote from: BBFA on Sep 23, 2024, 08:45 PMHuat do chiu think? :frown:
NPC Lowsesbbfa?
Quote from: jim889 on Sep 23, 2024, 09:00 PMwwow.. write so long.. find a new jhb chiu will be ok liao
:flash:
quite tiring to think of such things. anyway i went to re-edit liao u can reread the stupid story if interested
but most people arent interested anyway
basically thru-ought my life it's fraught with tonnes of shit. and i gave shit to close people around me
and im still shit
真的是，烂泥扶不上墙
Quote from: default on Sep 23, 2024, 09:08 PMquite tiring to think of such things. anyway i went to re-edit liao u can reread the stupid story if interested
but most people arent interested anyway
basically thru-ought my life it's fraught with tonnes of shit. and i gave shit to close people around me
and im still shit
真的是，烂泥扶不上墙
always 向钱看。
往事只能回味
just forget about the past. dun think too much chiu cant change the past.
:frown:
Quote from: default on Sep 23, 2024, 08:58 PMactually tbh i havent had it good in life. totally honest probably worse than u shiori
many many things such as getting aimed and almost lost an eye - scar still visible (roughly 1cm away from eye) - if i ever meet any of u i can show. teachers aimed me and top students aimed me because for a few exams i suddenly became top 3 or top 2
a lot of people see me as an eyesore at sports or school work. im not particularly the best but when i really fight back i usually can hold my ground. but this makes the bullies or even teachers dislike me even more. because they feel since ure small sized, since ure not known for studies or fighting, you should just shut up and be average. dont talk back, dont try to fight back in sports or studies or anything
because they only expect those good in sports or studies to be consistent and i suddenly win them out of the blue. u may not believe it but i can swear all these were true. i might not be smartest and small sized but when i put my mind to it i can easily be top few - not saying now but all in the past lah
i went to a few bazi master, they say i bazi 缺火. many times right, i win at the start but suddenly die down. like online selling biz - i did well to have passive income of 3k per mth, but then suddenly doubted myself and saw tiong sellers coming in then i stopped selling. like chasing girl, after a while feel im not good enough then gave up even though a few rare times the girl was ok. like when i was in NPCC i was top cadet then by sec 3 i totally dont feel like participating... pri sch i also got selected to the music recorder team, end up also half way i dropped out. my friend who didnt get selected but wanted to join stayed on
i feel i do things really very 三分钟热度. then when i lose that mood or feel im not good enough (say for a jog or girl or anything), i suddenly drop out of it altogether... i hope u are not like me
the number 1 student buay song me coz i won him. the top track runner pitted against me in napfa test and i won him in 5 areas (except the long run which was his forte), but still i also got pretty good score for that, nearly perfect
in army i also kena many things and a warrant officer wanted to whack me, is coz a ITE civilian clerk (those bo tak ceh woman sign on) aim me. he later found out and told me to be wary of her
even now at work someone from another dept is bullying me and resorting to personal attacks
and many other sthings incl relatives blaming me and parents like that
i say many times liao lor. most people either hate me or like me but i also always get betrayed
i also got many work issues........ usually boss like me at the start then after that dont like me coz they feel i usually remain neutral and dont want to play their politics (this part also true)
e.g. i work with the current dept, i get along well with probably 80% the other 15% is ok/neutral then 5% dont rly like me
u can see from how they look at u and interact with u
then my boss always wants me to shoot another dept but i always neutral. then the 5% (presumably roughly 5 people) will keep finding problems with me and want to 抢功劳
then the other dept that i work closely with. also about the above, most are ok except that 5% or less. but i have to work with 1 of them who keeps finding ways and means to attack me at a personal level, discredit me and gaslight
coz i look young and my voice is kiddish and i dont look good and am small sized then these few unprofessional ones also keep aiming me out of the blue. it affects me and my promotion and future including finding a partner
to sum up. which part of my life is best? i dont know. when my mum was around? but back then i gave her many problems and i was stuck in my own issues and have a low paying job just like u. max pay was 5k per mth but that job only work 3 mths. have to work until 2-3 am and report for work at 8am. not always but maybe 20%-30% of the time which is a lot already
basically they terminated my employment also for that. that was when my mum was sick
young time i told u above liao, people aim me. when in army also kena aim. also changed many jobs.
fast forward to today - current job seem ok but with that 1 person keep aiming me and maybe another 4-5 giving me problems once in a while
and boss not putting me in the plans (to promote me or to find ways to give me opportunities)......... and parents are like that now. but i still have self esteem issues although now much higher paid.
i cannot say currently is better or best. so i cant say last time schooling better, army better, start work better or now mid career better........ coz currently i feel im going nowhere and my value is diminishing
i really dont know how to answer which is the best period
im still thinking how to find that piece of 蓝天白云......... how to be top of my game then finally 笑傲江湖.
really thinking of what Louis Cha (jin yong said), 人生本该， 大闹一场， 悄然离去
I almost thought I was reading an essay about myself. I have a similar experience to yours. The bullying, kena fixed by others, directionless jod, bazi缺火。 :frown: