Even during weekends I simply cannot remove the unhappiness, frustration and anger in my mind.
I really feel like I must do something super drastic to fight back against people and to show that I am not a pushover, and that they are messing with the wrong people. I have been suppressing my temper and mood repeatedly for the past few months and I really feel I am going to lose all control eventually. This job I am viewing it as a triple setback on top of my previous 2 jobs and some days I have flashbacks of the unhappiness, anger and frustration from my previous 2 jobs as well.
It has been a super long time and many years since I last exploded in full force like a chernobyl explosion or a magnitude like the hiroshima atomic. In my previous 2 setbacks, I was able to retreat myself completely back to my usual reserved and silent mode, force myself with self control and instead push super hard to find a new job and quickly make a move. But it feels like abit different this time round.
I can only hope that I am able to find a new job quickly and move on again. Sadly, the market looks poor and my hit rate is even poorer this year, perhaps also due to the length of stay at my previous 2 jobs.
It has been a string of unfortunate events for me, and without much help and support from people around me along the way, I continue to close myself further and further inwards in life.
u can't always quit and hope it will change for the better because everywhere is the same so changing job is not a solution
Quote from: Shiori on Jul 06, 2024, 08:34 PMEven during weekends I simply cannot remove the unhappiness, frustration and anger in my mind.
I really feel like I must do something super drastic to fight back against people and to show that I am not a pushover, and that they are messing with the wrong people. I have been suppressing my temper and mood repeatedly for the past few months and I really feel I am going to lose all control eventually. This job I am viewing it as a triple setback on top of my previous 2 jobs and some days I have flashbacks of the unhappiness, anger and frustration from my previous 2 jobs as well.
It has been a super long time and many years since I last exploded in full force like a chernobyl explosion or a magnitude like the hiroshima atomic. In my previous 2 setbacks, I was able to retreat myself completely back to my usual reserved and silent mode, force myself with self control and instead push super hard to find a new job and quickly make a move. But it feels like abit different this time round.
I can only hope that I am able to find a new job quickly and move on again. Sadly, the market looks poor and my hit rate is even poorer this year, perhaps also due to the length of stay at my previous 2 jobs.
It has been a string of unfortunate events for me, and without much help and support from people around me along the way, I continue to close myself further and further inwards in life.
i was like u and still like u...... at night will feel i kena screwed by my own bosses tho they dont hate me yet but wasting my prime
can feel so angry until cant sleep until 2 or 3 or 4 am
now im trying to repurpose my life
if they dont want to bring me up, im going to bring myself up
i tell you, dont 意气用事
Exercise then go pcc
Quote from: Shiori on Jul 06, 2024, 08:34 PMEven during weekends I simply cannot remove the unhappiness, frustration and anger in my mind.
I really feel like I must do something super drastic to fight back against people and to show that I am not a pushover, and that they are messing with the wrong people. I have been suppressing my temper and mood repeatedly for the past few months and I really feel I am going to lose all control eventually. This job I am viewing it as a triple setback on top of my previous 2 jobs and some days I have flashbacks of the unhappiness, anger and frustration from my previous 2 jobs as well.
It has been a super long time and many years since I last exploded in full force like a chernobyl explosion or a magnitude like the hiroshima atomic. In my previous 2 setbacks, I was able to retreat myself completely back to my usual reserved and silent mode, force myself with self control and instead push super hard to find a new job and quickly make a move. But it feels like abit different this time round.
I can only hope that I am able to find a new job quickly and move on again. Sadly, the market looks poor and my hit rate is even poorer this year, perhaps also due to the length of stay at my previous 2 jobs.
It has been a string of unfortunate events for me, and without much help and support from people around me along the way, I continue to close myself further and further inwards in life.
Chiu need to seek support from a higher power aka religion :flash:
Quote from: Eat-Drink-Man-Woman on Jul 07, 2024, 05:29 PMChiu need to seek support from a higher power aka religion :flash:
i ask divination lots
please don't bring sharp objects to work.
ts, 你很记仇，do you fweel?
Can let go just let go alrdy.
You angry/hate those ppl who did this to you but do they know???
No wad. You're hurting yourself nia.
Can let go just let go. :look:
Moi know how it feels since moi came out from a toxic workplace.
Came out without a job & unless u like moi hv enough savings to pay all home loan & car loan, find support group till u can find another job. Bear in mind now the invasion had gone into many workplaces. Only way is out & if u hv skillset needed by OZ, go before u get mental issues.
Quote from: default on Jul 06, 2024, 08:46 PMi was like u and still like u...... at night will feel i kena screwed by my own bosses tho they dont hate me yet but wasting my prime
can feel so angry until cant sleep until 2 or 3 or 4 am
now im trying to repurpose my life
if they dont want to bring me up, im going to bring myself up
i tell you, dont 意气用事
Going to buy 1764 for 4D nao!
Hope it can change my life!
CheerS!!!😉